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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Recent Dream Themes1. (Instead of being sad that I have to live in my dad's house, or deciding to clean up my dad's house,) A bunch of irresponsible people have moved into my dad's house, and I have to decide whether I want to kick them out, or clean up their mess, or just party with them and then leave.
2. There's a big vegetable garden at/near my dad's house, and I'm about to harvest the monstrously huge mutant vegetables, with or without the help of my family, but constantly get waylaid.
3. I'm walking near my dad's house, noticing all the insane gentrification going on all around it, alongside abject decay. (That part's straight out of real life.) And then I arrive at a series of antiques stores run by liberal gentrifying white people. And they let me in to browse, because I look like them. But then, I can not resist plotting to steal from their stores.
4. I'm driving to or in a small Texas town near the coast. It's quaint, and yet contains an establishment filled with hipsters my age, including one or another of the hipster white boys I've loved in my real-life past. Nothing happens between me and these boys, but I don't care because I have money now, and I often have my kids with me, too. So I spend money, and being in those towns becomes a mini adventure.
5. Either I find a cool little house I want to rent, or else I discover that the small house I'm renting is secretly way bigger and cooler than I first realized. But then, in either case, I realize that I can only rent this place with my ex-husband, because he's the co-signer on the lease. I feel torn between staying in the house, ignoring my ex, and leaving him for a smaller, less-nice house where I won't have to put up with him anymore. Usually I'm about to leave when I wake up.
6. I have to do a show with the poor-kids musical theater troupe I used to perform in as a kid. Whereas the dreams used to involve me being unable to find a costume in my size, or not knowing the choreography or the words to the songs, now I just improvise a costume from my own clothes and plan to get on stage and improvise the song and dance, as well. And I can't wait to do it, but I always wake up, first.
All my dreams are about money or success, it seems. Very few dreams about love or whatever else.
Every night my boyfriend dreams someone's trying to kill him, or that he's trying to protect people he loves. We think it's because he has sleep apnea, and his mind must manufacture a reason for him to be struggling to breathe.
Sometimes my boyfriend dreams that I'm cheating on him, and it makes him sad. Sometimes I dream that he doesn't love me anymore, and it makes me very sad and angry at the same time. Once I woke up and kicked him, I was so upset. He said he was sorry and we went back to sleep - him so he could protect me from killers, and me so I could make enough money to make our best dreams come true.
Labels: dreams, my sex life
9:21 PM #Comments:
My mom had bad nightmares most of her adult life. A common one for her was being chased by the devil, who was trying to kill her. She was diagnosed with sleep apnea when she was 62, and began CPAP treatment. From then till she died the nightmares stopped.I have sleep apnea, too. CPAP treatment is inconvenient and takes some getting used to, but it has improved my life a lot.
# posted by
Joe T : 1:32 PM
Hi Gwen,
I only have two recuring dreams;
The first one has to do with a pony someone gave me a long time ago(it didn't really happen), and suddenly I remember it and go in search of my pony. And either I find it old and skinny, or I wake up sweaty and upset because I couldn't find it at all.
The second recuring dream is of a house. I keep looking for a home to rent or buy, and as I've gotten older the house have gotten nicer and now have nice furniture and are landscaped.
I have finally realized what the dreams represent; the horse dreams are my lost childhood (being a little girl I always wanted a pony).
And the house dream is me--the house is how I think of myself, and it's nice to know that my out look on myself has improved as I have aged.
I think your dreams have to do with security for yourself and your kids.
Janice~
# posted by
Janice : 8:44 PM
The only recurring dreams I ever remember are:
1. Finding out that I missed one credit in order to graduate from university, and that everything since that time has been done on a fraudulent basis.
2. Finding out that my migraines are actually caused by a tumor in the base of my skull, that won't kill me but that will result in periodic pain for the rest of my life.
In either case, even though I know they're dreams, I will wake up and irrationally worry about them all day, as though they were fact.
# posted by
Mike : 9:12 PM
Joe T: How much did your CPAP equipment cost? Did your insurance cover it?
(Also: One of our friends has epilepsy or something else involving seizures, and the meds they put him on for it gave him nightmares... and all his nightmares were about the devil, too. Is your mom latina? Or Catholic? If so, our people love to get scared by the devil, huh?)
Janice: Good analysis. The pony dream sounds sad/scary. And I think you're right about my dreams equaling the search for security. (money = security to me.)
Mike: Dude. It makes me sad to think of you having those crappy dreams. The school one: I used to have that all the time, but about high school. Like I never really graduated. The tumor is new to me, though. Scary!
# posted by
Gwen : 9:29 PM
Funny, Marigoldie posted about dreams today too. I said over there that I have a recurring dream that I'm moving into an enormous castle with many beautiful, richly decorated bedrooms and I'm trying to choose which one will be mine. I love that dream, actually.
# posted by
tina : 2:31 PM
i have a few recurring dreams:
1) i'm about 8 months pregnant and highly uncomfortable but very happy. i always wake up before i go into labor.
2) i taught taekwondo for several years, and i have dreams that either i'm back in that time period and teaching a class, or that i go back to the center and they rehire me and i start teaching. then those two break up into two kinds: either my boss is mad at me about something or he thinks i'm awesome. these dreams are nearly always upsetting. i fail in all of them in some way.
3) prior to my (recent) engagement, i would have a dream every few weeks that my boyfriend bought me a horribly ugly and/or cheap engagement ring. in some dreams, he proposed in a really beautiful way and then gave me the awful ring. in others, he just threw the ring at me.
# posted by
curvature : 3:16 PM
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